This week has been most interesting. The juniors are taking the Georgia Graduation Test, so our schedule is all messed up, which is FINE WITH ME. We've seen first and second period only once this week, and fifth everyday, which is great because they're a really good group. Tomorrow we see first period again, and Friday is a normal day, but I might be going to a job fair or something in Dekalb. We'll see, I suppose.

I found out today that Andrew has to take summer school. That's sad news...I really wanted to travel this summer. I wanted to take a road trip up north somewhere. SIGH...he says we can wait till next summer when he has time, too. Well, I'm not sure if I can wait that long. I'm graduating this May, and I wanna go on a trip THIS summer. I'd go with other people, but I know it wouldn't be the same. I'm going to the beach without Andrew this Spring Break, and it kinda feels weird. I wish he was coming, too. And he hasn't really traveled much. I think it'd be good for him to see other places.

The other day, a piece that we played in All-State one year came on the radio. It made me think about high school and stuff. Life was fairly simple back then. I honestly don't think that kids these days realize how good they have it right now. They're so angry all the time...why are they so angry? Vicki says that I was always angry when we were in high school. Hm...what was I so angry about?

There was something really deep and interesting that I wanted to say...but I forget.

Okay, I'm back.

Anyways, I got home super late after the recital on Thursday and didn't get much sleep that night because I was having nightmares about the happenings of that day. But it wasn't that bad. The students performed very well, they received all ONEs.

Everyone's getting married. Andrew and I have like 4 weddings to go to in the next year. I think it's kinda crazy how people so young are getting married so soon.

I might've found a place for us to stay during Spring Break. Hopefully, I can get out of my Thursday night class. Otherwise, i'm gonna have to look for another place. I'm sooo excited about Spring Break. Not having to wake up at 5:30am will be heaven.

We had Festival for al three of our orchestra groups this past Friday. It's the thing that I've been having nightmares about. The night before Festival, Kenneth had his senior composition recital, and I was performing that piece that he wrote for me for my senior recital. I was super nervous about playing because I hadn't played in so long and I didn't really feel all that comfortable about the rehearsal that Riza and I had the weekend before. Oops, there's the bell....gotta go.

Today's a teacher work day. Usually, that's a good thing. Today, it's not because I'm stuck here at school with nothing to do. Why did they even ask us to come today? It's not like we can help them with any of their work, and we definitely don't have anything that we need to be doing here. I really wish I didn't have to come today. Even though I didn't have to be here quite so early, I still had to go to bed at a decent time so I wouldn't feel like ass when I woke up this morning. David, Dorothy and Andrew came over last night, and I had to abandon them in the middle of a movie because I had to go to bed. ARRRGH....

Everybody go look at the pictures that Victor took of Barbara. They're super! Especially the candid shots.

I can't take it anymore. I can't stand being here everyday for hours and hours. I can't stand the kids, I can't stand anything about this place. Everytime I wake up in the morning, I feel like ass. I have a constant headache. The the end of the day, my head is throbbing. Last night, I couldn't sleep because I was feeling so bad. My headache had turned into a migrain and my heart started beating really fast. Can I be burned out already or am I just not meant to be a teacher? What am I gonna do for the rest of my life if what I've been training to do isn't the right thing?

Ms. Hudnall's been gone for the past two days due to a relative's medical condition. I heard that everything went well, and we're expecting her back on Friday. Yay.

I had a talk with Kimberly last night. She seems a little down...which is fine, considering everything she's been through in the past year. There have been some dramatic changes in her life. I guess she's just not used to feeling that way. She's usually very up-beat and optimistic about life. I told her it's okay to feel that way sometimes. It's not out of the ordinary. It's not like she's about to jump off the roof of her building, wishing a plague on the world as she's going down. I hope everything I told her helped in the slightest.

We talked about a couple other things. I think there are a few things in my life that I really need to re-evaluate. I can feel it...the winds are already starting to shift. Some major changes are going to occur in the near future...I just wish I knew what the consequences of my actions will be...