How is it that this time of year, nearly every year, I feel this way? I always feel like I'm at a fork in the road or something. Maybe it's because I *want* the change in my life? I dunno. All I know is, I seem to feel this way whenever the weather changes. Typical Koreanness, I suppose. We like drama and melancholy, I can't deny that.

Interesting fact: Last year around this time, we had a super heavy allergy season. Why haven't we heard anything about it this year? Is it because of the lack of rain? I hope it comes and goes while I'm in Mipples with Bob. Yep...the frozen tundra during my Spring Break. Whoohoo!

I want something. But I can't have it. And I'm pretty sure I shouldn't. Life sucks.

::Change::

I've always thought of myself as accepting of change. I went through a lot of it when I was younger, so no big deal right? Nope. It's a *huge* deal. So there are a few things in my life right now that's going through some changes. I'd like to say that I'm handling it very well. I'd like to say that I'm enthusiastic about the opportunities. I'd like to say that I'm handling it with grace (hahahaha...right) and dignity. Is that why I got so completely "not myself" on Saturday? I've been a little under the weather for the past few weeks now, and it sucks. I can't decide what I want to do or what I should do. All I know is I want a temporary fix for everything RIGHT NOW. And that's bad. Perhaps decisions will be made for me. That would make life a whole lot easier.