Hm....
The past week of fasting has been pretty tough. I started getting tired of eating cold food (I was eating a lot of salads and such), I started to crave sweets A LOT, and I went out to eat a lot more, which sucked. When Yasmin and David came into town, they wanted to go eat at Steak and Shake. The only thing on the menu that I could have was the salad - not even the fun salads that they have, but the garden salad, probably with no dressing (sugar). So I chose not to have anything at all. Bad idea. It took all my strength to not stick my face in the string fries and motor boat that sucker. Mmm...fries...
On the upside, I did get to eat at J. Christopher's on Sunday. Hooray! Can I just tell you that I ate *e v e r y t h i n g* on my plate? I had french toast, two sunnyside up eggs, a cup of grits (I added extra butter), bacon and three cups of coffee. Oh, and I had half of Andrew's english muffin and some of Yasmin's bagel and lox. Yes. I gorged myself. Definitely not my proudest moment. And in reaction to all the caffeine and food, my body kinda wigged out. I got super jittery from the coffee, and I couldn't even think about eating another bite of food for the rest of the day....that is, until Andrew decided he wanted New York style pizza from Brickhouse. I mean, what do you expect me to do? Not eat the gooey, cheesy, filled with pepperoni, thin crust perfection that is New York style pizza? I had one slice, okay? Geez...don't hate.
So after that episode, I told Andrew we couldn't go out to eat during the week anymore. It's definitely been better. Andrew made taco the other night and made a separate batch of taco "meat" for me with tempeh. Have you ever had tempeh? It's GROSS. If seitan's anything like that, I don't want to eat that either. Thank goodness the beans and the sauce covered up the taste. I ate it with salsa, lettuce and corn tortillas. Not bad. Of course, I had to give Andrew the stink eye for flaunting his cheese and sour cream around me (okay, he wasn't flaunting, but he still used it in front of me).
I think part of the reason why I've been having all these cravings and thoughts of caving into the temptations is because I've kinda forgotten the reason for the fast. I want answers. I need to know what my path is. It's not about the food, it's not about losing the weight, it's about getting spiritual guidance from God and seeing things clearly for the first time in a long time. The past year has made me lose control of myself, and it's actually physically visible. Hopefully by the end of this fast, I'll be back on track.
On a side note, I had this weird dream last night that I was running to Duluth. I was actually running. Like, not being chased or chasing after something. I was doing it because I wanted to. Maybe it's a sign. But MAN, do I hate running...
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
It's been a week since the beginning of the fast, and...I haven't cheated once! Well, intentionally, anyway. On saturday, we went to our nephew's first birthday party, and they were having burgers and hot dogs, so Andrew went out and got me veggie burgers. It had less than 2% egg whites in it, so technically, I cheated. I wasn't going to not eat the burgers because of less than 2% egg whites - Andrew drove all the way out to Publix, just to get the burgers (so sweet...although, his Lent "thing" is to be a better husband. Still...sweet). Besides that little incident, I've been very successful. I did have a dream last night that I cheated, and I felt very bad about it in my dream.
With all this vegetable/fruit eating, I've lost 6 pounds in 7 days. Wow. Kinda makes me wonder what kind of crap I've been putting into my body.
Since I've been able to keep it up without slipping up, I've been thinking about perhaps continuing this eating habit. I don't think keep it so extreme - maybe I'll become a pescatarian...
With all this vegetable/fruit eating, I've lost 6 pounds in 7 days. Wow. Kinda makes me wonder what kind of crap I've been putting into my body.
Since I've been able to keep it up without slipping up, I've been thinking about perhaps continuing this eating habit. I don't think keep it so extreme - maybe I'll become a pescatarian...
Friday, March 11, 2011
Daniel Fast day 2 & 3...
It's really amazing how your body reacts to a diet change. Actually, it's amazing how my body reacted to the Daniel Fast (can't say I've had this kind of a reaction to any kind of diet change before). Over night, I lost 3lbs. I know that's from water weight, but still! So maybe we are meant to eat just fruits and veggies (actually, I know that's not true. I'm reading Numbers right now, and God pretty much commands his priests to eat some of animal offerings).
Anyways, on the first night of the fast, I had pan fried tofu with a little "Asian" sauce over brown rice and broccoli. It was good! In fact, Andrew liked it and said he could probably have a whole serving of it. Of course, this was said while he was eating his "The Bomb" burrito from QT (that thing has like 1000 calories per serving. He is definitely not doing this fast with me). Here's a sort of recipe:
Pan Fried Tofu with "Asian" sauce
1/2 tsp. grated fresh ginger
2 1/2 tbl. soy sauce
1 tsp. hoisan
1/4 tsp. red pepper flakes
1 thing (um...box?) of firm tofu
1) combine first four ingredients together
2) heat non-stick pan over med-high heat
3) cut tofu into 1/2 inch slices
4) add a little olive oil (i dunno...1 tbl?) into pan and fry tofu, about 2 mins on one side
5) flip tofu and add sauce on top. done!
Tonight, I'm having curried couscous with dried cranberries and nuts. Here's the recipe for that:
Curried Cousous with Dried Cranberries and Nuts
1 cup whole wheat couscous
1 tsp. salt
1 tbl. curry powder
3/4 cup dried cranberries
1 cup boiling water
1/2 cup chopped onions
3/4 cup pistachios
1) add first four ingredients in a heatproof bowl, cover with boiling water. stir and cover tightly, let it sit for 5 mins.
2) give it another stir; add rest of ingredients. done!
So you might now like these, but I do! Aaaannd the best part is, it's both Daniel Fast friendly! WOOHOO!
It's really amazing how your body reacts to a diet change. Actually, it's amazing how my body reacted to the Daniel Fast (can't say I've had this kind of a reaction to any kind of diet change before). Over night, I lost 3lbs. I know that's from water weight, but still! So maybe we are meant to eat just fruits and veggies (actually, I know that's not true. I'm reading Numbers right now, and God pretty much commands his priests to eat some of animal offerings).
Anyways, on the first night of the fast, I had pan fried tofu with a little "Asian" sauce over brown rice and broccoli. It was good! In fact, Andrew liked it and said he could probably have a whole serving of it. Of course, this was said while he was eating his "The Bomb" burrito from QT (that thing has like 1000 calories per serving. He is definitely not doing this fast with me). Here's a sort of recipe:
Pan Fried Tofu with "Asian" sauce
1/2 tsp. grated fresh ginger
2 1/2 tbl. soy sauce
1 tsp. hoisan
1/4 tsp. red pepper flakes
1 thing (um...box?) of firm tofu
1) combine first four ingredients together
2) heat non-stick pan over med-high heat
3) cut tofu into 1/2 inch slices
4) add a little olive oil (i dunno...1 tbl?) into pan and fry tofu, about 2 mins on one side
5) flip tofu and add sauce on top. done!
Tonight, I'm having curried couscous with dried cranberries and nuts. Here's the recipe for that:
Curried Cousous with Dried Cranberries and Nuts
1 cup whole wheat couscous
1 tsp. salt
1 tbl. curry powder
3/4 cup dried cranberries
1 cup boiling water
1/2 cup chopped onions
3/4 cup pistachios
1) add first four ingredients in a heatproof bowl, cover with boiling water. stir and cover tightly, let it sit for 5 mins.
2) give it another stir; add rest of ingredients. done!
So you might now like these, but I do! Aaaannd the best part is, it's both Daniel Fast friendly! WOOHOO!
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Here we go...
Today is the start of Lent. I've been talking about this a lot, I've been praying about it...I thought I was ready for the fast, but last night, I started to doubt myself. I starting getting nervous...and scared. It eventually lead me a bad dream about the fast. Whitney says it's evil trying to keep me from succeeding. I believe it. And that makes me realize even more that I'm meant to do this. I know that in the next 40 days, I'll find something. Something important. Not an object, but something about myself. I'll come to some sort of realization, I just know it. So yeah. I can do this.
Okay, enough with the heavy. For my first act as a Daniel Faster (that sounds weird), I had a grapefruit and a cup of strawberries. Hooray! I'm on track already!
Today is the start of Lent. I've been talking about this a lot, I've been praying about it...I thought I was ready for the fast, but last night, I started to doubt myself. I starting getting nervous...and scared. It eventually lead me a bad dream about the fast. Whitney says it's evil trying to keep me from succeeding. I believe it. And that makes me realize even more that I'm meant to do this. I know that in the next 40 days, I'll find something. Something important. Not an object, but something about myself. I'll come to some sort of realization, I just know it. So yeah. I can do this.
Okay, enough with the heavy. For my first act as a Daniel Faster (that sounds weird), I had a grapefruit and a cup of strawberries. Hooray! I'm on track already!