Lately, I've been feeling really weird. I can't really tell what it is. Maybe it's this whole turning 21 thing, I dunno. For some reason, I feel like I'm at a completely different level in my life, or should be. I feel like things should change, I need to grow up. I can feel myself growing up...or changing? I can't tell. Either way, I think it's been kinda rough on the people that I love and care about. I think I've been a little distant from certain people. They're not to blame for the way I feel...I'm just changing or something. It's too bad people can't change with my mood and feelings. It's been hard because I can't explain any of the things that I'm feeling....or maybe I don't want to. Well, whatever it is, I wish it would stop so I can stop feeling all funky all the time.
Tonight, Whitney, Kenneth, Eric, Stephanie and I went over to Andrew's apartment to watch movies. We ended up watching like 3 episodes of Queer as Folk. Yeah, it was a bit much for me at first, but it got better. I knew that it would be a little weird for Richard, but he was good about it....but then one of Richard's friends came over. He didn't say anything until everyone else left, and then he started blurting out stuff. Everything else was a little annoying, but the first comment that he made really, REALLY ticked me off. It actually didn't have anything to do with the fact that there were gay people over, and we were watching a gay drama, but about something else, rather, someone else. Why did he have to say something like that? The last time someone said something like that, I lost a lot of respect for a friend that I've known since I moved to Atlanta. I just makes me sick when people talk about other people like that. ARrrrrghh....anyways, they went on for about 2 more minutes, and I couldn't take it anymore, so I left. Andrew was kinda pissed at me for doing that. He didn't understand why I was so upset. It's probably just a huge misunderstanding on our part, but the things said in there offended me. I don't care what they think I should've thought or whatever. Anyways, I just kinda left so the issue was definitely unresolved. I hate it when it's like this, I don't know what it's going to be like tomorrow. I wish he's just call me or something, but he never calls after something like this happens. That's one of the things I wish he'd do....call me or chase after me after a disagreement of some sort. I always end up calling him or chasing after him or whatever. sigh....