So for the past couple days, I've been thinking about way too much. It's not that I'm making myself think about those things. I can't help it. There really is too much to think about. And I think the stress of all this is weighing me down. It's making me cranky, it's killing any sort of confidence I had in myself, I feel like ass emotionally and physically...I need something to take it out on. I feel like a great blob. I feel like I can't control anything.

Dorothy and I are going to St. Louis next week to see Yasmin. That should be exciting. I haven't seen her in years. Plus, I'll be going back to my beloved Arch. Oh, Arch...you are sooooo the Gateway to the West...